it has all ended. on the very night on 7th august.

it was the least expected, the most heart breaking.

our character differences, our temperaments, ways of dealing things.
its undeniable we were a world apart.
but papa told me character is possible to chng as we grow up.
he is someone who is sensitive to others, patient, cool tempered, he thinks tat small issues are not worth the quarrel or unhappiness, he values family, he values honesty and trust. he is not someone led mainly by feelings, but by thinking. he is almost like a perfectionist, and is highly adaptable.

wat doesnt kill me makes me stronger.
i wan to get stronger for him, for myself, for us.
i am not gg to give up on us, nor this love.
he is the one i wan to hold hands w and walk the rest of the roads in my remaining lifetime.
he was the best thing that happened to me and he is so irreplacable.

i asked him if he's gg to put a complete end to us? he said no. den i ask, will he allow fate to bring us back if it really does? he says, yup and we'll see how it goes.
i told him i miss him and i asked him if he do, and he says he does too.

it really pains me to see us be distant and like tat.
perhaps this is God's way of putting us thru ordeal and making us grow to be stronger for each other.

i noe i dun hv to always be right.
i am going to learn and change myself so tat i will no longer be so impulsive, and i will not let emotions take control over me or my behaviour.
i'm gg to learn to take things lightly even more so tat for evn the smallest issues, i dun let it affect me or become upset.
i wan to learn to be more open-minded and receptive to things he tell me and his opinions, to accept him and his flaws.

at the end of the day, im gg to work hard in chnging myself to be his superwoman. im sure i can. i believe we will make it thru. at the least, he agreed and said he is willing to meet up still as frds during this period. so it means we still can maintain as much as possible of our love and also learn and chng.

one very important thing, i cannot always be defensive. i cannot always think that im like tat and so i cant chng. i shud always rem that leonard also has sth abt himself too and i cant expect him to be the one giving in all the time. for lil or unnecessary issues, i shud not let my emotions take control. i must learn to put myself completely in his shoes and feel how he feel, think how he think.

"why get unhappy over sth that u hv a solution? and why get unhappy over sth that u hv no solution?" cuz no matter wat u do, feel, there's still no solution. so things like tat, shud not get unhappy at all.



he said: i receive all the texts liao. and up, if fate allows us to be back tgt, i wont stop.

i said: so tat means u are not putting a complete end to us right? u're the man i wan to walk the aisles, grow old w, hold hands whn our hair turn grey, and so i'll definitely hope for the day we be back tgt agn.

he said: yup im not putting an end. lets just let it all be natural.

i said:hao ba. till then, i'll be missing u. ):

he said: i'll miss u too.

give all it takes.
sacrifices to take, committments to make.
let it all be natural and fate will flow between us together with the love we share like how it did.
fate has brought us tgt in such a unique and special way, it will keep us going till the end of time.

we'll make it thru.

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